see i seeeeeeeee saaaaaaaaaw; it all, so saccharine.

well, alls i can say is that the planned out situations are seeming to never follow through;
it's more like things only work out when not planned, therefor forming the seemingly most perfectly plotted outcomes.




i learn to accept this fact as more and more i am faced with consistant situations like this arising in my everyday life. it's not a bad thing, it only makes me realize, more and more, that everything really happens a certain way for reasons; in order for the scheme to rationalize it self and sink itself into your pores, into your eyeballs, under your fingernails and into your soul. i aint sayin i'm not going to make plans for the future, for my future, for the future future;





but that's what's good. for the most part, i have a plan. i have personal, obtainable goals i've set for myself that i AM going to acheive. but the details, ah, the sweet sweet littel details, those are the unplanned, unexplainable, unequivilant to any other feeling/ undescribable, unimaginable magic moments in this life we were given to live.





Life's just un____________________________________.

with your white horse, my prince of the darkness; i'm gonna fly away, i'm gonna fly away.

work hard, work hard work hard. the world is filled with opportunities. and possibilities. i must take advantage of what's in front of me. i must make it work. i muustsucceed. i must succeed. i must get out. i must get out. i must break free, free of this. i will be my own, on my own, i won't just leave everyone in the dust, but i want to take care of myself, all by myself. i may need help on the way, but im not stoppin for anyone. NO ONE. no one can stand in my way. i'm in charge here, i am in charge. i can make anything i happen. i WILL make everything happen. just believe. see it, it will come to you. feel it, it'll be there. smell it, and it's right under your nose. hear it, and it's screaming right in front of you.

it okay, we all put our pant legs on one at a time.

oh chritsitamas, when santa comes coming down that lil ol chimeney, you hear the boots, you smeell the peppamint schnapps, you know he's comin. you know he's comin for you lil boy and girl!

oh everyone gets all silly up in here on xxx-mas. wonder what you'll all get this year...a lump of coal? a new shiny pearl necklace? gi joe? the possiblities are endless. it is a world of endless possibilities. this is a world of endless possibilites.


google - "christmas world"





















looka like penguins make your presents, not elves, as we have all thought for our whole life. santas got some splainin to do!


i bid adieu.




no matter how worse off you think you are, there is always someone whos just a little more worse off. appreciate what you've got my littel friends, i know you all do anyhow.

rest in pUnkROCKK d.boon. you are truely a god now.

oh and remember, jesus is the ONLY reason for da seazon.

ouu makes me want to shout

and vomit. i dont even know you! but i can feel my blood in my head, very fast.just a littel gals dream..one day, one day. but hey, i am doing this for myself. i am focusing for myself. i want to suceed for myself. i want this for myself. i want to be there for me.



i want to break free.

born to be wild

i heard this song on the radio this early morning, and i really like it..the words are just so good and its fun to play my own way on da geta. it is by jim croce (i changed the word a littel)heehe

Like the pine trees linin' the windin' road
I've got a name, I've got a name
Like the singin' bird and the croakin' toad
I've got a name, I've got a name
And I carry it with me like my daddy did
But I'm livin' a dream that he just cant give
Movin' me down the highway
Rollin' me down the highway
Movin' ahead so life won't pass me by

Like the north wind whistlin' down the sky
I've got a song, I've got a song
Like the whippoorwill and the baby's cry
I've got a song, I've got a song
And I carry it with me and I sing it loud
If it gets me nowhere, well, I'll go there proud
Movin' me down the highway
Rollin' me down the highway
Movin' ahead so life won't pass me by

And I'm gonna go there so free
Like the fool I am and I'll always be
I've got a dream, I've got a dream
They can change their minds but they can't change me
cause I've got a dream, I've got a dream
Oh, I know I could share it if you want me to
If you're going my way, well, I'll go with you
Movin' me down the highway
Rollin' me down the highway
Movin' ahead so life won't pass me by


it just makes me feel so good..its just so ________.



i started drawing people a couple monthes ago, but i've found that i can only draw them how i want to when i draw with my left hand..animals too!









and i like to draw them in blankeets,maybe so i dont have to draw the rest of them ahah



these people, oh these sweet little people/

yes, letit go

imagine floating through a field of yellow flowers or through the sky or floating in gengerfal, or driving through the desert, really really really fast but slow with blue skies. blue skies comes to mind. and sand. lots and lots of sand. "a lot of cacti."

babey let it go all nite

this is mine.

ohyes yes yes, the rain felt so good on me. it was nice to see the ground juiced up again.

as well as my future ceiling. so good to see it all juiced up!

move in and out

these times are strange times. finally going, even if it's not far away, realizing what i want to do with my life, where i want to be, at least for a little while, it's very nice. i feel like this is one of, if not the strangest time period in my life so far. "coming of age", changing spaces, friends leaving, figuratively and literally, magical coincidence, everything being so chaotic and unpredictable, yet ending up as if there was an itinerary planned for each hour...




and everytime i see you, it's like i've never not lived down the street.



and living with him, i think will be a very good thing for the both of us. i think we'll both grow a lot, and learn a lot from each other. i know siblings sometimes don't get along living with each other, but i have a feeling it's all going to be just fine. i am excited, not only that i get to have my own space, but i get to get an idea of what it's going to really be like when i end up where i want to be. on my own. free willy. flappin in the wind for the whole safari caravan to see.







Ah madre, gracias por todo que usted ha dado.