strange bird & dirty bunny

Oh the world is so big and so free and so open and so willing to give you anything and everything you could ever ask for; you just have to be willing to wait for it and when it actually comes just let it flow into you.

and it will almost always come out of seemingly nowhere..
to your sweet surprise..it will just appear out of seemingly thin air..

and you can never expect anything from anyone except yourself. never expect anything from anyone except yourself.

revelations of how grande and how great life is and can be

is it easier to hurt someone you're close to, someone you love ?
or someone who you've only just met, someone who you have no past, no attachments, nothing..simply perhaps one night of innocent human communication with, and with whom you've chosen to never see again..is it easier to hurt someone you have this sort of contact with?



hmmm...more or less, i'd guess with the preceeding option. it is so easy to just yell,"OKAY MOM SHUT UP I HEARD YOU FOR THE 82 TIME ALREADY. YES I WILL CLEAN MY CORNER." with no recognition that perhaps your mom just wants to instill traits in you that you can carry along with you for the rest of your life and eventually teach your own children. (do we ever think about that?) but why if you hardly know the person, why does it make you feel so bad to be mean? what triggers human nature to want to feel like they've neglected their puppy? maybe it's just me. Maybe it's something that makes you want to help the person,( i know; i face reality and accept the fact(idea)(REALITY)that no person should ever try to help,change, SAVE anyone, or any one person.) i know. but maybe it's you somehow wanting to reach out and say, " HEY IM JUST LIKE YOU, BUT NOT REALLY, BUT MAYBE WE CAN BE FRIENDS ALTHOUGH WE HARDLY KNOW EACHOTHER AND HAVE JUST MET AND YOU COULD MAYBE MURDER ME" but then again i think that everyone wants tomurder me...maybe that's something i should work on? maybe not everyone is bad..maybe there are people out there who are actually not bad? maybe i just look like a dumbass on a blog but hey, you know...whatever.


but i don't want to be unaware, i don't want that one time i put my guard down be the time i get my throat slit


maybe everyone needs to get their throat slit at least once in their life...how will you ever know what fate feels like if you're always running away from it? maybe not this time, but maybe next? maybe i need to stop saying maybe..maybe i just need to actually follow through with my verbal expression and put my thoughts to actions. let the freedom flow from my veins out into the world and put my energy to good use... i'm so thankful and grateful for what i've experienced and been given in the past year..the opportunities of a lifetime just fell into my lap... i wonder what would happen if i actually tried, myself


I'm sure the outcome would blow my mind